Today has been tough.
I have had to remind my self that I
have forgiven the two persons who
i think i will need to do it everyday.
Everyday i need to lay this at the
cross, or the ark or in the warm
embrace of the divine.
But I still have a raw, open
I realize that forgiveness is
a continued work.. it does not just
energize the pain away like one
goes from the Star Ship
Enterprise to some weird
When I think of what they did.
When I think of how they have
hurt other people.
When I think of the worst…
What would have happened if they
told the wrong person
I feel like I am being punched in
the balls. (so to speak)
Yes, they are forgiven.
And yes I am still hurting.
And still scared.
And still angry.
And still very sad for the loss
of two people whom I trusted.
And I will never trust them ever
So I breath, and I breath again.
I breath in the love and the healing
and the hope and the light that is
And I hold in
the deep sanctuary of my heart
and the hope that soon they will
find all that they need.
Until then I shall, hold
Them in the deep, cool, waterfall
loveliness that is prayer.
Amen, Ashe’ and May it be so.