i have been long such a long time, i am sorry. i feel ready to start writing again, i am going slow tonight.
I am thinking….
Of my mother, she is in so cal and I am up here in the PNW, she is dying, not actively TODAY, but she is dying and I can not be with her. I have a toddler, I am a stay at home mom, I have two boys in Primary school. My beloved works full time.
I must let go of what I want or what I think is supposed to happen and just let it go. G*d is in control. It will be ok. It is not MY DEATH, she has a right to die angry and sad and even lonely. that is her choice.
I am thankful for….
A) Prozac, my new shrink who confirmed that I was not getting the care I needed from my old one. She not only prescribes the drugs, she also councils..yay.
B) And, that thing on my face, well it is cancer. But I got treatment for it. And though it is butfuckingugly, soon it will be gone and for that I am grateful
C) that princess nekky is weaned! We went 3.5 years I feel good about that, and glad it is over. It was such a blessing to nurse her for so long. But I have been ready for a while now, to have my body back.
From the learning rooms
I am working hard for our school. I like it. It is good work. I know that I am making a difference and they like my work.
From the kitchen….
Is a nice pot roast just fresh from the oven. With root veggies and a yummy gravy. Perfect for a snow storm donja think>?
I am wearing….
Long sleeve shirt under a long brown dress with a hand made wood sweater vest. OH! A a really great scarf.
I am creating….
Cake Plates, rice crispy treats, this blog post and a nice home.
I am going….
I am reading…
I just finished reading Fall to Grace: A Revolution of God, Self & Society by Jay Bakker. it was great. The book says that Jesus taught GRACE. You should check it out.
i started reading I know you are by what I’am I? By Samantha Bee.
I am hearing…*
A Jay Bakker Sermon from Revolution Church
Outside my window….*
Snow and ice
One of my favorite things
My Mary statues, I have a bunch.
Making me laugh…
Nothing right now
A few plans for the rest of the week…
the week is almost over. I am glad, though there are a few things going on that I would like to do, but it would take me from the family for most of the weekend. Not a good plan.
from the simple womans day book